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home again, and better for it
We got home on Saturday night. Sunday we rested. Monday I worked. Now I’m ready to BLOG.
I’m going to play the journal card and just pour my travel-heart out.
By the way, you were all right. We had a great time. The kids were fine. I didn’t even cry once.
Did I hear a "niner" in there?
She’s nine months. She only weighs 13lbs 6oz. Dr. ordered blood work. Richard isn’t worried. I’m not really either. Dr. says it is probably that she just isn’t getting enough calories. And her activity level isn’t allowing for the type of lethargy needed for successful weight gain.
In any case, we will all remember these next few months of her life as the months she spent in her high chair, eating. Feed that baby! 
the big trip
My freshman year of high school my family moved to Fairfax, Virginia for one year. It was a job opportunity for my dad that we knew was temporary so my parents drug us all across the country. Now they have only themselves to blame for their children’s itch to live somewhere besides Boise.
I’ve been back many times since to visit old friends, or family members. It seems at any given point one of my siblings lives in the Washington D.C. area. (Along with Las Vegas and Provo. One or more of us can be found there as well at any given time.)
Richard has never been to our country’s capital. Even Cameron beat him there. We’ve talked about it occasionally but sometime last fall a football game was announced. BSU vs. Virginia Tech in the Washington D.C. area. He was sold. Frequent flyer miles and a free place to stay (with family members) clinched the deal. We booked our flights as soon as the date of the game was solidified.
Our trip is two days away and for the life of me I can’t figure out what I was thinking. Why did I think it was a good idea to leave my nine-month old baby, my “mama’s-boy” three year old and a five year old who has only one week of kindergarten under his belt? For eight days.
Words of affirmation and my love language. They are more than that. I need them like I need water and sleep. I need them right now. Keep your disapproving remarks to yourself. I’ve come up with enough of my own.
big day around here


summer 2010 in the books
Another summer is slipping away. We have watched the corn in the fields around our neighborhood grow taller and taller. It’s a fun way for the boys to observe the passage of time.












milestone
My eldest child will enter the world of public education next week. He is really scared. It’s really cute. But it makes me really worried. Today we went shopping for his school supplies. I was so excited. You know, “bouquets of sharpened pencils.” But it was a disaster. Suppose it was an omen for Cameron’s first day of kindergarten? Or worse, his first year of school? I’m really not this type of mother.
Nearly half of the supplies on the list were sold out. (Bad timing on my part, all other school districts start before ours.) A few items on the list were not described in a way that allowed me to know just exactly what I was looking for. We did manage to leave with the large bottle of hand sanitizer, a box of Kleenex and two boxes of crayons. Unfortunately I had to buy all name brand because the generics were all sold out. School supplies ain’t cheap.
This frustration was all compounded by a tired eight-month old and a hungry three year old Once again bad timing. I’m sure I’ve read a thousand times in PARENTS magazine not to take your kids shopping during lunch/nap time. Then there was also the five year old with that nervous energy and expensive taste. Really? A lunch box for $19.99? And what if Cameron takes a cartoon lunch box to school only to discover cartoon lunch boxes are not cool. Because, they’re not. Well, that is, unless you are in elementary school. I have to keep reminding myself to think like a five year old.
Richard tells me that I wouldn’t be disappointed so often if I didn’t have such high expectations. My original plan was to go out, just me and Cameron, and do his school shopping. I could put his fears to rest over an ice cream cone, just the two of us. Then I was made aware that we needed to bring school supplies to the classroom open house, tomorrow. Unfortunately due to lack of inventory Cameron’s contribution to classrom supplies will be missing half the required items until next week. I wasn’t about to tackle another store given the circumstances. If his teacher has a problem with that, I’ll consider homeschool.
Not really.
my pride and joy (on the good days)
feeling low
My brother and I were discussing blogs the other day, and their reputation for being narcissistic and sugar-coating life. Blogs often give the impression “Look at me! Look at how great my life is!” While I can not claim that this post isn’t narcisstic (it probably is), I can say for sure that it is honest and real. So I write it while my emotions are fresh and raw.
Today I am having one of those days where it feels like everyone is frustrated with me. It might be that I am just perceiving frustration from some people, but some people have made it clear that they are in fact frustrated.
In the shower I broke down. I allowed myself a few moments to weep in self-pity.
Reading this, I imagine your kind hearts being filled with sympathy for me. Perhaps you can relate because you have felt this way yourself. I appreciate it but I ask this of you. Tuck away your sympathy and save it. Save it for the next time you are frustrated with someone. Imagine them weeping in their shower because they know they have disappointed you, and are therefore frustrated with themself. Then retreive your sympathy, and use it as a catalyst for forgiveness.
Because today it is forgiveness I want.
Miriam’s room

Sisters Brit, Lori and Adri painted the little birds. And sister-in-law Laura made the little pot of flowers. My mother also pieced and hand-quilted the quilt, which is its own piece of art. 












